Doing the Laundry

I've been neglecting you but now is the time to do some laundry and get some things clean and out in the open. I have a secret to tell and my oh my is it a big one. Well, you know what? It isn't really. I've been through the ups and downs of life and I'm trying hard to focus on the positive. To try and find my calling and my meaning in life. I also have been thinking about sex less and less and we all know that that is a miracle because when I sex, the masses know. I can't even formalize a picture of me having sex. Instead I think of late night phone calls and days at the lake. The weather perfect and that smell in the air that let me know that it was more than a fling but love. I get that feeling all the time when I see you,smell you,feel a slight brush of your skin on mine. I hear it in your voice even though we can not be together because we both know it is wrong or is it? We have options of leaving each other for the "loves of our life's" but we already know that we hate each other and that we wouldn't want it any other way. We can't stand the sight of each other or the memories that get replayed. Can't stand the nights together and the first we had. Can't stand that everyone thinks that I'm your girl and you are my man. We are the past and forever will be. The future is not ours together but separate no matter how much the hate grows. We hate so much that it overflows and in the end, that is all that matters even if we can and never will be together.