I've Caught Up on My Laundry;Have You?

So, I've been away for awhile but I've been trying to get my love life together. It worked. My fiance and I are going strong. I came to the conclusion that there is no other person in this world I would rather be with than him. He's been with me through so much and he makes me happy when I let him make me happy. It was just a matter of me opening my heart and letting him back in. Our wedding is in two years and getting excited to plan the wedding. I just hope I don't become a bridezilla in the process because I do have a temper. Other than that my life has been eh okay. I got layed off from my job but it's not as bad as you think. I've come to realize everything happens for a reason. Maybe it means it's time for me to sit down and finish writing my books that I have been working on for the past couple of months. I need to be focused and dedicated in which I am but I'm not. I tell myself that I have writer's block but does writer's block actually exist or is it your mind playing tricks on you, discouraging you from the task at hand? The thing is to stay focused which is hard for me because I am in no way linear and my mind wanders easily. I come to find that this makes writing a novel difficult because first I feel that I have to write in order but I know that I don't. Second, I get distracted and Third, I want everything to flow and make sense the first time around which never happens when you are writing a book. I have so many preconceived notions in my head of how a book should be written and I instead need to focus on just writing, not about how it is done but just do it.